[9:27 P.M.] [Friday, Feb. 08, 2002]
[i had a bad day again]

* sometimes you just need to cry * for the past few days I have been feeling like crap with this entire Erin/Jeremy marry thing * I know they arent gunna get married, it just isnt a great feeling for me to know that she is the one tha he wants to marry * I shouldnt let it get to me * but it is hard * I heard Amanda and Megan talking about keeping in touch and keeping someone around by writing in Pestkas today just minutes after I heard someone say *Who*s getting married?* * yea so then I heard Erin talking about Military guys, and while I only heard her metion Jimmy, I just am paranoid and thought of Jeremy too * Maybe Im just jealous that she has him and I dont * well just have to see how tightly he is wrapped around her finger when he comes back to town * If he calls me * or wants to see me * and if anything happens between us * then I know that he wasnt that serious bc u cant do that when u have the opportunity with the girl u want to marry * not to mention that your overriding feeligns that are supossedly incredibly deep * I dont know all the under lying details, and I am sure that i dont need to * Esp not today * School was alright and we had our class cabinet meeting to make prom decisions and that went pretty well * Eric and Josh skipped today so I didnt haev him to talk to in lunch * adn at work it was terribly long bc he wasnt there to talk to and I was already in a bad mood * I got yelled at bc Brittany stole my hairspray from my room bc I didnt lock my door * I was called lazy for not locking it this morning tho I was running incredibly late and didnt leave til 7 20 * so of course being in the supetting mood i was in i started to cry * I t was my fault she took it from my room * and I didnt need to yell at her for not asking * Yea okay * so why soes she get off for it * and then she was liek its your house why dont u just kick her out and then Victor ( my step dad) was like well itll come back to her dont you worry * what the hell is that! * what will come back to me * her stealing my damn hairspray * they hairspray is not the issue here * dont hink i am that shallow please * the issue is I got in troubke bc she stolde my f ing hairspray * what ever * so being upset I was naturally late to work and I had no where to park so I parked under this ugly ass tree * well so robert ( my boss ) came in later adn was like wheres Rhi * then he was like why did u park there!? * you know u arent supossed to park there * and I tried to explain the situation adn he was like I dont care u could have parked around at the house * where might I mention I haev NEVER parked before * so that made me want to cry even more * when somehting goes bad everything has to to keep the pace up * and then he yelled at me 3912452384 more times and I was so close to just quitting right then and there * You know why I didnt * b c of Eric * I like working with him * it gives em a chance to get to talk to him more one on one than usual * oh yea we were talking the other day about the shows coming up and I asked about Less than Jake * He wanted to go but it was a friday and we knew we werent gunan eb able to get it off * so I said I was thinking : * and the doors open at 7 so the first band wont even play til at least 7 30 if not 8 and then after the first band, there is another band that opens for them * so by the time Less than Jake comes on, itll be prolly like at least 9 30 * so I said I was thinking that maybe i would go up there adn he was like would u wanna do that with me * well if he doesnt have a game of course * and so we planned on doing that * that would be awesome * if it deosnt happen i will be devistated * ahh well what can ya do * Yea so their second game was tonight in Arcadia! * and I had to work * but all my friends went down there and it didnt start til 7 30 so it wasnt gunna end til 9 30 and that would out them home at 11 at the earliest * so Allie is spossed to call anytime now * she prolly wont * but I have nothing to do so oh well * and thankfully I dont have to work in the AM so we are gunna have a fun fashion day and go to Micheals and get ribbons and Drings for belts and sprey glitter and jive and also go to like thrift shops and find whatever to decorate * itll be alot of fun i hope * well for now I am gunna get * i haev no regrets * ill already griped enough and my prayers are for Kristy, my temper, my walk, my relationship with my family and friends, adn my decisions, including college, scolarships, etc * my thnaks are for friends and Eric, with out them my sanity wouldnt be possible * I gotta get *

*the world is like a bag of carrots, its orange, itll maek your eyes good, but dont ever try to turn it into a juice*

-Buddy System Indeed

Love is the perfect song....*Rhi*

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