[10:31 P.M.] [Wednesday, May. 01, 2002]
[living in your letters]

* i haev been so thinking about ross lately bc of a beautiful sky today * it reminded me of the one i took of him with the luffy white clouds pasted on to the bright blue sky during homecoming week * this prompted me to write him an email... i hope i find his address soon *

Ross- For some reason i have been thinking about you a lot lately. I m not too sure why, i just know that i have been very nostalgic about everything lately. I really never apologized for everything i made go wrong in the past. it wasn't intentional, and i am sorry that things were always rough between us and never worked out. i know now that you probably don't care if i apologize or anything bc you are so over that phase, but i do care and i have really been thinking about it a lot for some reason. i am sorry that i never listened to you when things finally fell together at chelseas about the situation that had ended between you and rachel. i was stubborn and i had already hurt over the situation, so i refused to believe you. and for seeing jeremy instantly afterwards. I was thinking about that second night i was with him and you called me. i really feel bad about that. i was thinking about the content of our talk that night, and i refused to believe you, and you became supportive of my decision even as i was being a jerk. i am really sorry. and i know you probably don't remember all the things i am talking about, and probably dont even care ... but i totally need to get this off of my chest before all of you seniors are up and gone!! im sorry for what rachel and i did to you that one day at work ... that was really wrong of us, even if we did find you deserving, it was really cruel to try and confront you like in a double teaming way. i was just mad that u had told us both the same things, and even though u said you had changed your mind and realized you like me, not her, i didn't care bc i was just really upset. and i am sorry for coming over so late that one night, to stay there with chelsea and u and bobby and whoever else was there after we left jeremy's. that was wrong of me to do that, bc it was just a weird situation. im sorry also that we never really got to talk or hang out this latter part of this year. as for kissing you that one night at jon jons', im not really sorry i did that. lol. maybe a little bit tipsy, but not sorry. maybe well see each other around this summer, and hopefully ill be in my dad's new house soon. sorry that this was so terribly written, but im not gunna be at school again til monday, and i might see you prom, but i just wanted to let you know all that. remember, you gotta save me a dance at prom... u owe me big time fro the christmas dance. good night, sweet dreams of me. if your gunna have 'em, ya might as well make 'em dirty ones! lol JK. peace out dawg....!

Rhiannon

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